I need to get a grip of these dreams. Last night I had another 2 nightmares, one after the other. The first had me wake sat upright, the second so cutting and so close to reality I was left wondering if by keeping something with such sadness a secret, I've given myself too much to process alone.
I really need a decent nights sleep. I'm back to work tomorrow with travel planned Tuesday through Thursday (to be honest, at the moment that feels like a bonus - time away from my boss and her ridiculously loud voice, overbearing manner and idiotic approach to things), so only two days in the office. I think I can handle that. This weekend I'll start the hunt. A new job and a fresh start. I don't really want to stay in this city long term, but I love this apartment. It would be the perfect place to live 'with' someone as opposed to a flatmate. Anyway, I've given myself until the end of July. By the end of July I need to have my ducks lined up and either a seriously well paid job here, or something that will make me happy elsewhere.
If something doesn't give this week I need to look at getting away somewhere. Get some fresh air, a change of scenery and hope that gives me the head space I need to be able to sleep like a normal person again. Oh, and somewhere cheap! Did I mention it would need to be somewhere cheap, free even. January is a killer.
Hands Like Houses - Torn
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