I had a great weekend visiting family for my oldest nephews 16th birthday, we went paintballing for the day and there are loads of things I could tell you (and will later) but for now, this blog, today... I've hit hell again!
For no particular reason other than everything taking its toll on me I've hit a wall. An invisible all consuming wall that has made me not want to leave the house, has left me confined in my own head screaming to get out and somehow trapped in my own skin. I'm screaming on the inside again!
What the hell is this, this isn't me, i'm not it and I bloody well refuse to let this mental state keep taking hold of me. I have that cheesy clip from some crappy movie/tv show springing to mind 'I am a strong, confident woman' - yes, yes I am but why then do I feel so debilitated? and by what? My self, me, I am squashing myself.
Arrrrghhhhhhhh I wanna break free from this!
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Radiohead - Creep
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