Fastforward

So life has handed me another spanner in the works so I better get my head into gear and tackle things head on.

The plan WAS to take some time finding the perfect job, apply leisurely and focus on having something in place in a location of my choice by Aug/Sept however yesterday life stepped in and put things into fast forward.  

When the post arrived yesterday I opened a rather important looking envelope which turned out to contain a tenancy notice to move out agreement from my landlord.  I called him immediately as I had almost convinced myself that despite a surveyor coming round to view all of his properties last month, his  speedy replacement of my fridge/freezer with a brand new one and having heard nothing of concern that I was safe... I was wrong.  When I spoke with him he advised he was in financial deep water and so the bank was reclaiming several of his properties and mine was on the hot list.

I have a good relationship with my landlord having lived in two of his properties and never being late with my rent or overly needy as a tenant so I am sure my reference will be glowing, but the fact is this completely and utterly spins my plans out of control. 

I've 2 cats so finding a flat in the first place is difficult, accompany that with my refusal to live in a new-build unless it is exceptionally spacious with massive windows, my budget and the fact I want to look for employment in a different location so the sign of another lease, even a short assured tenancy agreement would be a nightmare throws me into a whirlpool of stress.  The irony is the main location on my hit list for a number of reasons is the city OOJ lives in and he does have a spare room but I seriously doubt that would be an offer for the taking.  Total disaster!  

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Avril Lavigne - Mobile

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9eJDRjXWfX8

No Net

I've had some serious net access issues this last while as 3G is rubbish where I am and despite being back at home my internet is also on the blink.  Back in a few days, in the mean time here's a mega brief rundown:

1. Radiohead wants to date me and pretty much put it all on the line to my silent response
2. Mr X offered again to pay to fly me to Dubai for a visit
3. My new car is awwweesome and was not out of place in the fast lane 80% of the trip home
4. Mum is staying at my flat for a week as she wanted a holiday
5. I haven't logged into my work email once in the last 4 days!! (It has to be a record)
6. I'm going to start officially applying for jobs next weekend when mum leaves
7. Since starting to lose weight I've lost approx 9kg - Hurrah!
8. I'm worried about my teeth as they are starting to get clear tips so I am clearly having enamel issues from too much brushing again
9. OOJ is being weird with me
10. I neeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed a holiday!

Imaginary Hat (updated)

Imaginary hat off to you blog reader who pointed out that stop backwards isn't post but is in fact pots!  Lmao.

So I'm heading to my mums tomorrow to see her, my brother, sis-in-law and nephews (foster nephew included) and to pick up my car - exciting!  I had planned on staying a week to catch some sunshine as they all have gardens, but as it is forecast to rain/sleet the entire time  I might make it more of a fleeting visit and head back to work earlier than planned.  

This last couple of days I couldn't help but think what if I was OOJ and had read this blog, would I be upset, annoyed, angry...? Then I figured that I've written nothing on here with malice even when it came to Mr X (who has royally screwed me around) so I wasn't going to over think it.  I know he said he wouldn't look again, but I don't think I could close the door to someones inner world once it had been opened so I guess I need to write anything in future knowing that perhaps he isreading.

Anyway...

I met g-star last night as he is looking after the kittys while I am away, we were meant to head for a coffee so I could drop off the keys after work but he convinced me it would be rude not to head to the pub for a proper catchup and a munch.  I'm glad I was pursuaded as we had a giggle and a much needed catchup.  Ironically we are both broke atm due to cars (me buying mine and his having to be taxed, MOT and Insured all in a six week period, so I think the plan is to have a night at mine early next month with drinks, chat and dvds while he gives me a lesson in how to bake the perfect cookie lol.

On other guy news I'm heading out on a date this coming Thursday while I am away.  Its with a guy I've known for years (lets call him Slide - after a song he sang to me once to catch my attention at a house party).  If I'm honest we had a v casual friends with benefits arrangement going on way back when I was travelling about heading to gigs all the time and he was on my hit-list of party people.  He is a musician, and one of the swoony kind... women throw themselves at him when we are out and he is never without a girl on his arm for long and despite this remains utterly independent.  Anyway, he and asked to take me out on a date this coming Friday when he heard I was in town.  Don't get me wrong bloggers I have always known what this guy is about, but I think in his book I was always the one that got away... probably because I was the one that didn't want to tie him down.  Anyway when I heard he was playing a gig on the Thursday I switched plans on him and now I'm going to head to that and get the full Slide experience.  There was always something about seeing him perform that for an instant made me completely lose myself.  


So there you have it, a date on Thursday to see him gig, grab a few drinks, catch up, probably end up at a party back at his (I can't imagine that has changed) and yes... It probably does mean that too ;)

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The Script - Science & Faith

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2YXqgZTWu4&feature=my_favorites&list=FLa_P-Zpvtawwxj_QUbEEytA

Stop is Post Backwards

Thanks for your messages

I've decided I can't quite hear the fat lady singing so I am going to continue blogging and should OOJ continue to read or 'stumble upon the blog again' then he should feel guilty.

Be back Friday bloggers x
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The All Seeing I - The Beat Goes On
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Exa1AKgeJUE

Reading My Diary

So last night OOJ told me he had actively searched for and had found this blog onine and had read it.  This was followed by him telling me he only looked once and would never look again as he felt awful... saying that he must have read a chunk as he managed to find one of the few blogs I mention him in, and to find the blog in the first place... not exactly something you would stumble upon by accident.

Not sure where to go from here bloggers, I definitely don't buy that someone who has essentially found your diary read it once and then never look again, especially if it contained their name.  Its human nature.

I love my blog! Its the one outlet that actually works for me, keeps me sane and helps me de-clutter the things in my head and heaven knows I've enough to deal with on a daily basis (some of which I've never shared in this blog) but the whole point was that it was anonymous and deliberately so. I hate to think someone who knows me and the people in my life has been able to read things I've never shared with anyone in my life, and never wanted to share (other than you guys, my faceless blog followers).

I know the answer is that I need to stop blogging because to have someone read my inner thoughts and feelings who knows me makes me feel sick.  I also think the answer is that I need to delete my blogs past and present (again something that I never wanted to do as I'd thought if ever I had kids it would be interesting to share).  

Suggestions?

Mr Perfect & The Plan

So tomorrow night is cocktail night with the people I work with at the same level and our boss, I was really looking forward to it last week but with the pressure of the car bills mounting I would be lying if I wasn't already secretly hoping its an early one to save the pennies lol.

I feel like getting this car will give me back my freedom so I don't mind sacrificing other things along the way, but I'm not the kind of girl that can go on a night out and either stay t-total or nurse a drink for an hour.  I convince myself I can be, oh yes I certainly do that but in reality after one (if its a wine) or two (for anything else) I'm little miss - whoorahhh lets make a night of it and paint the town pink!

Wouldn't life be blissful if I bumped into Mr perfect tomorrow night who is both handsome and loaded with a personality to boot.  The chances of that happening are slim to none, but a girl can hope.

Just over a week of work left and then I am off for a week and its hello family, ola car and goodbye transportation barriers.  Then I'll be on to action plan number 2... The time has come bloggers.  It is officially job hunting time.  I've decided to do the UK thing for 12-18months, save some cash and then aim for the big goal of a move to the states.  I'm pretty flexible about where I take the job providing it is a social place and it isn't London (Been there, done that... wasn't impressed).  Anyone reading fancy giving this plucky young girl a great job with a competitive salary? lol

So here goes the order:

• Car
• Job
• Holiday
• Save
• USA
• Man

Do we approve?

ps:  I've been wondering if I should share but I figure why break the habit of a lifetime.  I'm officially back in touch with Mr X and yes, we are talking a lot.  

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Bran Van 3000 - Drinking In LA

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v2qtMAqelSg

Mint Cornetto's Rule

It is too sunny for anything other than a few simple facts today

• I officially love the sunshine and need to live where it shines every day
• I can't wait till the 10th when my holidays begin
• I am currently too much of a slave to work
• I need to start looking for a proper job again next month
• I want, no I neeeeed a mint cornetto

Oh and enjoy...

Sunshine Seeker

I've booked some annual leave and I am sooooo hoping I get a taste of this beautiful weather.  I will be gutted if I take off a week and end up in the rain and cold.

Don't get me wrong it is a busmans holiday to quote my mum, I will be jumping the train to visit my mum, brother, nephews and foster nephew over Easter for a couple of days and will then be driving back home in my lil car, stopping off a few places and meandering on the way back.  I might even stop off somewhere ad-hoc for an overnight stay somewhere pretty.  If I could have life my way and some more cash in my ever skinny bank account I'd head to my home town for a few days on the beach.

I feel this last little while has been all go with no fun in sight so I definitely need to stop and catch a breath.  I'd love to get a little tan while I'm at it too, not to mention shed a few lbs as it is sunny and I never want to eat when its warm and sunny - yet another good reason why I should live abroad.

I'm also feeling frisky as a bunny so I need to sort myself out and start addressing this whole single situation.

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Boys Like Girls - The Great Escape

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JGPgxoIPY6Q

Kapow

Today I held two meetings and they both went fantastically.  I am sick of the sound of my own voice, but on the plus side I am confident I made the right impression.


Shattered however doesn't cut it.  I could go to bed and sleep for a week.

Hottie

Spring is most certainly in the air and I definitely have that frisky 'all my problems have melted away' feeling at the moment as the sun is streaming through my window.

I've been a busy bee this last few days with case handling and negotiations at work (all of which had a positive outcome) and was away with work yesterday (5hr car trip each way) but today is the last day of my official working week and boy am I glad tomorrow is the weekend!  Admittedly I have volunteered to do some work for sport relief on Friday night which will take up a good chunk of my time off but its for a good cause so it doesn't really count.

The interesting news to note is that while driving to training yesterday a woman I work with and talk to quite a lot mentioned that her son had seen a picture of me on facebook and had asked her 'who is that hottie', I laughed and as she is relatively young suggested I was indeed classed as 'awesome' by teenage boys and put this down to 'keeping it cool for my nephews' only to find out that her son was 25!  I can't lie, I was definitely perked up by the snippet of info and then further amused in the knowledge that he had then gone on to ask her how she knew me and if I was single.  The icing on the proverbial cake however bloggers is that having later seen a photo of what he looks like, I can safely say he would reach the dizzy heights of a Ser3ndipity 8/10 so to say I was feeling a little inwardly smug yesterday is a slight understatement.

Other than that no big news, however I will be finalising insurance, parking permits etc with the car come payday and shortly after will be heading down to see the family and pick up my new toy.  Lets hope the weather holds out so I can have an epic sunglasses, music blaring, car driving moment to remember.

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Dodgy - Good Enough

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qapDnDDHNfs 

Jumping Back In

Mr X and I have been in touch this last little while, not vocally but via text, whattsapp and email.  It seems no matter how hard I try I will always end up allowing him back into my life.

This last little while I have been looking at the events of my life between 20-30 and despite all the trials and tribulations, you know what... I haven't done much, I've been stagnant and I haven't enjoyed it one bit.  Without a doubt I'm not going to let next 10 feel the same.  I am going to take as much from every opportunity that I can and if that means loving deeply and having my heart torn out again then I guess I will try to welcome the things I learn from the bad experiences as well as soaking up the warmth from the good.

I can't help but wonder where my life could have ended up if I had made different choices along the way these past few years.  I don't regret anything but I can't help but think I haven't exactly carved the best path from the opportunities I was presented.

This car will be a piece of freedom.  I think its about time I dusted of the Mary Poppins inside that in the past always seemed to keep me on the right path.  People tell you to settle down, lay roots, stop being so impulsive and so you listen and try to wind things in (in my case particularly in the last 5-6yrs) and yet it is clear to me now that this was the worst decision I could have made.  I'm not meant to be a 'feet on the ground' person and trying to fit that mould has in some ways forced me to suppress the things that make me great and the things that make me me.

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Alone - Alyssa Reid ft Jump Smokers

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=witcrLcD3mU 

Junk Food Jitters

I have major cravings for junk food today!

Cheetos would be top of the list if you could still buy them mmmm cheesy goodness.  No idea why but man is my body craving crap.  Good job I'm in charge and not my stomach. 

 Helloooooo banana!

I swear if I didn't have an ounce of common sense I would be down the local shop right now stocking up on the below and eating till I felt sick (which given the list would probably be within a few mins lol)

Reeces Pieces

Raisin & Biscuit Yorkie

Cheese Doritos

Space Invaders

Micro-pizza

Hash Browns

Smokey bacon walkers

Salt & vinegar ruffles

Cheese toastie (with garlic mayo to dip)

Ginger ale

Chocolate Yazoo

Fruit pastilles

Yes... MMM MMM MMMMMM

Wisdom .Tooth Style

Have any of you had your wisdom teeth come through bloggers? If so can you give me some info as I am in a world of misery this morning.

I had heard a heap of horror stories so when I realised my first was ready to come through six months or so ago I psyched myself up for trauma, however the tooth sprung through, is completely healthy and white and I thought nothing of it.   A few days ago however my second wisdom tooth on the bottom started to pop through, again looking healthy and white but so far back in my mouth that I'm not sure there is space for it.   

The question I have for you blogger is... Can having a wisdom tooth come through that is super healthy with no signs of swelling or infection around the gum cause you to gain the mother of all colds?

I feel rotten.  The tooth is making me bite my cheek and my tongue at that side and to overcompensate I must be moving my mouth in a different way that is causing me to the the exact same thing to the other side of my mouth also.  To top this off my tounge as a consequence has swollen and I have developed somewhat of a lisp.  That's right bloggers.  I've an uncontrollable lisp and a super sore jaw at the bottom of my chin that is causing me to talk like a total plonker and have issues in pronouncing things on the week I'm attending no less than 6 high-level meetings at an array of businesses amid a large percentage of people I don't know and I'm having to speak at all of them!!!

I am thinking in a week things will have settled so I'm trying not to jump the gun to get rid of a perfectly formed tooth, however I am aware it may become impacted if it tries to emerge fully at the back so I need to keep an eye on it.  Still, at the moment life is pretty unusual.

Hints and tips people... I need hints and tips.  

Butterfly Effect

I've caught myself flirting a little with the guy in my team I had that dream about... sodding dreams making me all crazy!

Don't get me wrong I'm not doing the whole full-on bar type flirting or anything that people would notice (other than perhaps him) but for some reason I catch myself doing it and then have to internally berate myself into stopping.  It is soooo weird! I mean the guy is handsome, but not my type by a long mile and until I had that blasted dream I wouldn't have given him a second look in that way.  Don't get me wrong he is funny, intelligent and anyone I can think of in a work scenario that knows him thinks he is great, but to flirt with... shouldn't be happening!

I better get a grip of myself and wind my neck in before I find myself in a really bad situation.

Other than that things are ticking over, I'm off to city #1 later today so need to pack, tidy up a little and pray that Hooch (he has my spare keys this time to feed the kitty cats while I am away) doesn't go snooping about *shudder.  In an ideal world I wouldn't have had to ask him but he passes my flat every day on the way to/from work so it was the least hassle option.

Curry & Chattage

I went out with my team yesterday after work to celebrate someone's successful secondment application.  

We headed to the new 'in' place to be which is a super fancy newly opened curry house where you can't reserve a table and due to the Indian godfather pull of one of the guys in my team (everyone wants to shake his hand) we were seating almost straight away.  We all remained sober but the conversation was witty and flowing and the evening was definitely one to be repeated in the not too distant future.  After eating so much we could barely walk the boys suggested they take we girlies to a Sheesha place not to far away to sample some more of the culture alas the bar had stopped doing Sheesha two days before due to some issues with the police and the smoking ban.

In other news as of tomorrow I'm doing a whistle stop tour of three cities in the UK with the Union part of my job to a few networking events/conferences so I'll be a busy bee but should have a few interesting blogs to follow.

For today though I am afraid this is all I have to offer in terms of blogging as I'm about to rush out the door to the library.

PS:  I bought the car :)

Back tomorrow x

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