heaps has changed since I last blogged. So so much! In a couple of weeks I'll find the time to tell you but not right now. Right now I just need to write whatever comes into my head. I need to let my thoughts spill out onto the page without thinking. I shouldn't have stopped blogging. Whatever happens I should always blog.
Life has been crazy. Crazy on so many levels both practical and emotional. I've literally been riding the roller coaster only I've forgotten to wear my safety harness. No swimming. No blog. No music, and for one significant reason no 'me' time. With the exception of the rush hour battle to work and back each day I've not had space to take a deep breathe in a long while... And it's showing.
I am a girl who likes company, but needs space. It's the quandary. What I want isn't always what I need.
That said, right now, in this very instant, all I want is someone to hug me until I sleep, ask me if I'm ok and want to talk it all out, kiss me on my forehead if I cry and hold me hushing and rocking as I gently fall asleep.
It's all quite simple, but none of it is forthcoming. Space, utter emotional enclosure... Either or, but one or the other. I'm at tipping point and I'm worried if I can't cope everything is going to fall like a deck of cards.
Anonymous blog of a 21st Century single, kinky, broken, determined chick (six years and counting)...
