Last night I was struggling to get to sleep as my shoulder was being gnarly and so I was messing about on my phone and decided to clear my 'chat history' on whattsapp and in my messages. A simple task I hear you say... Wrong!
I had a huge debate with myself when I had deleted all the messages from Mr X about whether to block him also. We haven't spoken since September (I'm not going to go on about that though), but there is still a little part of me that despite not calling, emailing or texting him doesn't want to completely cut off all lines of communication.
Anyway, after some thought, I decided I would block him as if he really needed to get hold of me he could call. I started adding his numbers to the block list and then the unthinkable happened. My shoulder went into some kind of mad spasm making me drop my phone and as I picked it up I realised it was dialling his number (4am his time). I clicked 'end call' as soon as I realised but was convinced I had heard it ring before I got to it. After a few icy cold moments of panic I decided not to worry about it and that I was probably just being paranoid and the phone hadn't actually managed to make a connection, after all, it would have been an International call and the phone couldn't have been out of my hand more than a couple of seconds... Wrong!
This morning I awoke to a text from Mr X wishing me a Happy belated New Year, asking if I was ok as he had missed a call from me while he was sleeping... SHIT!
I wasn't sure whether to text back, ignore the message, be nice and pretend like everything was ok explain the situation and wish him happy new year too or to send a snotty reply along the lines of 'why do you give a shit, go back to being invisible'. Don't get me wrong, I am sure like many of you reading this, in the past (and I'm not proud of it) have played the dropped call game. This however, was a genuine and most irritating mistake.
I decided to opt for the short and simple response of 'I dropped my phone, sorry if it woke you. Serendipity'
I'm not sure it was the right msg to send. I mean, he had received a dropped call from me at some crazy ass time in the morning and had text to see how I was as soon as he got up. He had tried to be pleasant with the whole Happy New Year thing, but who are we kidding, that was more of a 'felt it mandatory' than anything else or he would have text on the 1st. Still, I am really annoyed at the whole situation and to be honest found it worryingly upsetting and I'm sure I will despite my best efforts end up deliberating my response for a while yet.
Damn my sodding female hormones and inability to just not give a shit.
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Frou Frou - Let Go
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=13WAhlE02ew&feature=related
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